~May Your Light Shine~

Saturday, June 30, 2007

This post... I wanted to put it into my public blog... But in the end, i still decide not to... So i put it here instead.

Many times after a conflict, many people would be unhappy with one another...

Now, lemme say this... If there is a friend of yours, after quarrelling, the person claims everything to be fine and alright, everything is ok, and are still nice friends by means of anything thru MSN SMS Email and even telephone or snail mail or wadever and he or she is not a petty person... But in person, he or she is still obviously mad at you, by giving you cold shoulders and not talking with you, and not even giving you a look... What will you do?? How will you think??

To this particular person... Im going to be straight and blunt... You had said those to me through MSN liao. You had also claim that you are not a petty person. You had also given me the trust to trust back you. But, you had seriously thrown me into great disappointment... Especially after that day after the test, what are you trying to mean when i talk to you, you dun even reply to me and look at me... Only after my continuous bombarding you of the same question, you finally replied, and your answer? Is just a line, said out loud and rudely into the air, not at me. It got worse when i saw you walking out of the lift, what are you trying to say when you saw me, you actually look away and pretended that u had not? As well as on that day when we are in the same class (Dun pretend you dunno the only class we are together now) the coldness you throw towards everyone behind you? Seriously, sometimes when this happens, i seriously wanted to give you a tight slap or to yell at you right at your face. Do you know how much WE hated it? Yes.. Its WE... not me alone. Now im telling you, i had finally understand why you always tell me that you have much friends. I am thinking... maybe its you that do not know to treasure it. Its pretty obvious everyone are fine with it now with you being the only exception. Am i right? Even if others still mind, at least they would smile when i saw them. What about you? So for now, I am not going to do anything unless you take action first. Prove to me! Prove to me that what i said up there are wrong. Prove to me that you are actually okie right now. Tell me! Tell me what are you not satisfied now. Tell me what is in your mind all these while. Explain to me! Explain why are the cold shoulders. Explain why are you behaving in such abhorrent way... So, do not blame me if i start to do the same things you had done to me. And one last thing... Stop pretending... its just so so fake. If you want to lie, I will start lying together with you. If you pretend, I will start pretending together with you.

Its useless after all... She wun be reading this anyway. How i wish she would be able to hack into my account, use my account and hack into this blog and read it...

Maybe i shall just use it to vent my anger on huh...

yylow30 blogged at 1:43 AM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...